Still Blue
Apr 29th, 2012 |
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My heart races faster
as I walk into that off-limits place
once full of joy and now only sadness.
My tears well up slowly
when I touch the soft cotton shirts
with their dinosaurs, baseballs, and bears.
My tears roll slowly down
as I reach for the bright blue truck
just waiting for tiny fingers to make it run.
My tears slowly blind me
as I imagine a different beginning
for a new life so anticipated, so soon ended.
My heartache crushes in
so hard that I move to a safer place
where colors range wider than sad baby blue.
For our first grandchild, Austin Holcomb Seymour, born still on January 18, 2012.